I have written out two full manuscripts for this story. They are completed. Then I met the actress that the lead character was inspired by. She likes the character she mentions to me if I write it as a screenplay she'll show it to her manager. Try to get it pushed through and see if they can actually make the movie. I'm like "Yeah no problem the manuscripts are written how hard can it be to write it as a movie?"
Apparently so hard that I just don't write it. At all. Which is killing me. In fact, since January when she said this to me I've written basically nothing. The worst part is it's all in my head. I've been working on this one concept and this one story for 5 years. I know it like the back of my hand. If you had me sit down and tell it to you I could tell you the entire thing. Beginning, middle, end. Yet for some reason I cannot write it. Why?
I'm a person who used to write tons of stuff. Tons of original stories. Tons of fan fiction. Had a huge following for it as well. Now everything is just frozen. It's not that I don't have ideas, I do, all the time. Then they just...go away. I can write at most 3 pages of a new idea and then nothing else. I constantly think of story ideas, constantly develop them in my head. Nothing is coming out and I can't figure out why. I thought "Okay I just won't work on the screenplay for a bit, maybe that will help." But I can't work on anything else either. I need to write this screenplay this is a window of time here. This is my chance and I can't write it, which is stupid because it's all basically written it just needs to be in a new format. What is wrong with me and how do I fix it?
